Head or Heart?

At the minute my entire life is so up in the air that i feel constantly conflicted when it comes to who to turn to for guidance and what to believe. I'm feeling so many emotions that it's like i'm on a never ending roller coaster...one with lots of steep plummets into the dark abyss.

I've come to the conclusion that i'm mostly ruled by my heart. Passion guides me and tries to tempt me into rushing towards complicated issues, blindly ignoring all consequences and the need for well thought out plans.

My other half is the complete opposite though. He strives to think sensibly and he believes that the best long term plans are made through this kind of thinking...however logical this may seem though it often leaves me feeling as though i'm the only one thinking about us and the life that i'd like us to have together, with him choosing work over this. Yes i am fully aware that this is totally daft, he only wants to make sure that he is financially stable before making any drastic decisions, but i am worried that this is going to take a lot longer than he believes.

I must admit that my feeling this way has become a lot worse since two close friends of ours have somehow managed to create a new life together in London with no collateral (that i know of) and no real work (at the moment...that is soon to change in a couple of days). They seem to have only considered their passion to be together and have thrust themselves straight into their life as a couple, with no thought towards where their next pay cheque is coming from - and they are both fantastically happy with this!

I am jealous to the core. They have been together 4 months less than us but their relationship has now progressed a lot further...i can honestly say that right now i have no clue when (or if) this will happen for my and my boyfriend.

One friend said to me that he didn't think their relationship would go the distance...that they've rushed into it too quickly and that we're doing the right thing by properly thinking it through - but i think he's wrong. Seems to me that they'll survive whatever may come their way.

I am fully aware that this post has been created purely through jealously...but with all this free time on my hands my brain is in overdrive. I picture our future but so far the image seems to be moving further and further away, rather than getting closer like it should.