First night back home from Cornwall and i already wish i was somewhere else. The way my father treats me sometimes makes this house completely unliveable in for me.
I'd packed away all my stuff, done two loads of washing, packed away the food shopping...everything i needed to and had therefore sat on my bed to check my emails, check facebook, and write up a few of my blog entries. But oh no, apparently this is not allowed...accordning to my father i'm obsessed and am on a downhill slope to nothingness because i apparently spend my 'entire life' on the laptop.
It never seems to cross his mine to occasionally ask what i'm doing instead of presuming i'm wasting my life away solely on facebook. If he dared to kindly enquire he'd find that i'm applying for jobs everyday, looking for flats, checking emails, writing my blog (which is important to me because i want a career in writing...therefore one needs to write!)...oh and of course i now have freelance work that needs to be sorted out as well - but none of this crosses my dad's mind.
It's seriously frustrating. I fully realise that when i have a proper job my time for doing things such as these will seriously be diminished...i don't live in a dream world. I wish dad could see that all he is doing is reiterating the many reasons i have for needing to move out as soon as possible.
I seriously miss my freedom.
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hi! i just found your blog when i googled 'post-university depression' and found your post on it. i must say i can relate to all these things you've been writing about. i also get a lot of shit from my dad about wasting my life on the computer, and i've just graduated from university and have moved back home at my parents' request and am hating it! i've only been back for a few days but already i'm dying to go back to london and back to my boyfriend. i feel so stuck in life so it feels good to know that someone has been through it all. why did you stop writing though? i'd love to know what's going on in your life right now and whether things have worked out. xx
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ReplyDeleteSorry about only seeing this comment...obviously myself and my blog have been parted for a rather long time!
I'm not sure why I stopped writing to be honest, it was so long ago. The bf and I were going through a rough patch and I actually was back and forth to the doctors with panic attacks and stress (which I still occasionally suffer with now). It wasn't a brilliant time but I'm through it now and I think I'm a completely different person...hopefully a more clued up one too! I think things have worked out in a way as I'm currently happy and settled (perhaps a touch too settled) but the job/career worries never really leave my head. Despite having a fairly decent job/salary I'm still looking for other things.
Thank you so much for your comment, I'm just sorry I didn't see it a lot sooner!
How is life treating you? X
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