Look but don't touch...

There is really only one issue with Cornwall and it's something that you would never expect up North...tanned attractive men!

Ok, some of you are probably trying to figure out what said issue is with regards to this, and in most circumstances there isn't one...as long as you're single.

Now don't jump the gun, this isn't me confessing my infidelity to the world, i can honestly say i would never cheat on my boyfriend...he's my best friend and lover all rolled into one and i couldn't imagine life without him (although this long distance thing does give me a taste of it...something that i hope to be over with in the not too distant future)...however some harmless flirting wouldn't hurt anybody...would it?

I'm not talking about genuinely open flirtation here...i would never go up to a guy and start a risque conversation up with them, and if i saw a guy trying to do that with me i would tell them in no uncertain terms that i am a taken woman - there's no point letting people believe there's a chance when there definitely isn't...i'm thinking about the truely innocent flirting.

For example, walking home from dinner tonight a group of guys walked past on my side of the pavement...all around 25 years old, beautiful golden tans, dark hair and relaxed 'beachy' clothing. The guy in the middle caught my eye...i can't help saying that he was gorgeous and suffice it to say i was shocked when he looked me straight in the eyes and gave me a naughty smile...his eyes following my face until we'd walked past each other. I was stunned, exhilerated and feeling slightly guilty.

Is this kind of flirtation wrong? It had no negative affect that i can think of...i felt attractive because of the attention, it was playful (sort of a quick glimpse into the world of singledom)...and it was refreshing. I didn't think at all that he was the kind of guy i wanted, that i'd made a mistake and still craved single life...the total opposite in fact as it made me miss my boyfriend even more, i want that attention off him and that's what i truely crave. Yet i still felt the pang of guilt that made me feel ashamed of what had just happened.

Being human is certainly a funny thing...i often wonder whether we were meant to fall in love at all...that maybe our weak and frail bodies cannot cope with the heartache and power of it - it makes us feel too many thoughts to be able to handle sometimes...obviously!