Well i have actually lost count of how long i've been back home for but it must have been around 3 weeks now, however it is already beginning to feel like an eternity! I've got to say that this is definitely not what i expected after graduating from university, at the time it seemed so glamorous to think that i was now going to be thrust into the big wide world and that all my dreams were going to come true...however now i've realised it is quite the opposite! God knows how many jobs i've applied for so far but i've either been turned down or ignored. I am now beginning to realise that i'm either going to have to take 'any old job' to see me through or stay living off my parents for god only knows how long!
I realise that i am not the only one despairing over this but quite a few people have managed to land on their feet straight away and i'm just wondering how?! I have absolutely no doubt that they are talented because all the people that i know are, but i can't help but admit that i am extremely jealous of how quickly some peoples lives appear to be working out. What i want in life is really quite simple, or so i would have thought. I'd like a job writing as a living - be it copywriting, journalism, scriptwriting, administration type work...anything really; i'd like to move in with my boyfriend...and i'd like to be happy. Where have i gone wrong?! OK, i admit that not enough time has passed to truely despair over my situation yet but i'm beginning to panic about my choices in life...did i go down the wrong road??
http://www.guardian.co.uk/education/2001/feb/13/highereducation.news
This article is a very interesting read and one quote stood out for me as it pretty much describes how i feel right now; "University is for yourself, for your personal development. In the corporate world, no one cares about you."
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Hi Jenna,
ReplyDeleteI happened to randomly come across your post. Just wondering how you're coping now?
I've recently completed my law degree, in fact from keele uni so very close to yours. I feel like i'm in the same position as you, its horrible. How u doing now?
I got a job I really liked right away after school, then was laid off after seven months, then was hired to do a job I discovered I loathed after 5 weeks, only to be made a better offer by another co. in a different city for a position that may be more than I can chew, which I have accepted anyways and left the other co. I feel like a loose canon and I don't know where I'll fit in but my folks say I shouldn't bounce around too much. This is an odd time of life for me; the above article link describes exactly how I feel. I can only hope things (and I) level out :P It is odd being away from my school peers and in self defense I am isolating myself from most people.
ReplyDeleteIm in exactly the same situation at the moment.
ReplyDeleteHow long did it take for you to get over it all?
I'm really quite scared.
Hi all, I'm very sorry that it has took me so long to come across the comments...obviously myself and my blog have been parted for quite some time! For this I can only apologise. I was going through a tough time and was suffering with stress and panic attacks. The bf and I parted ways...I officially moved back home and had to really figure myself out. Job wise I think I'm doing ok but I'm still constantly searching for roles I deem to be more 'me'...it is always niggling at the back of my mind.
ReplyDeleteI still believe that I am partially still in the post university depression/slump. I recently met up with 10 of my best uni friends for a weekend and despite all being the same personality wise (every time we meet it's like we saw each other yesterday) we all lead completely different lives. Some of us are still floundering in the murky waters of 'real life' whereas others have been stood on lush dry land since day one. It's very hard not to be jealous of those people.
I very recently read an article in Grazia questioning the reality of that 'perfect job'. It said that instead of wasting our lives endlessly searching for the job we feel we deserve we should just take what we can get and treasure our time out of work...be happy despite the fact we don't have the career we've always dreamed off. I'd hate to think that I'd wasted my life wallowing in self pity because I feel like I haven't made something of myself and let myself and my parents down. Why can't we be happy regardless? If we have friends, family and aren't struggling for money shouldn't that be enough? I'd like to think that one day I will feel this way...I hope the same for you guys too!